I keep thinking about this whole weightloss thing and I think it's amazing how it can consume everything you do and make you unable to focus on anything else. I'm just trying to figure it all out and its making me crazy. I know now why people end up with ED's.

I'm just so tired of fighting with it. I know that if I could actually get down to where I want that I could maintain it quite nicely. It's just the getting there that presents the problem. It's a never-ending battle.

Someday, when I figure it out I swear that I will never screw it up again.