I found it! I'm always on the lookout for songs that fit my mood or current circumstances. Well, I finally found one that suits the here and now:

"Tell me who should I be to make you love me
Tell me what does it mean to be alone
Can't you see me standing staring out from a distance, hear my cry
If you'd only listen
Out of focus, into me and you

Kiss me fool if ya care
If your words have any meaning
Playing it cool is so unfair
Why this veil of secrecy
God forbid, your friends found out what we did
Why can't someone like you be with someone like me?

Touch me fool if you're allowed
I'll be dancing in the corner
It's so cruel to play it proud
Take your hands and cover
I'm aware that all in love is fair
But that's no reason to make me feel this way
And it hurts me so bad to deny it
And these feelings are out of control

Do you know what it's like to want something so bad?
And then having to let it go
And it hurts me to know that this time in our lives
So soon will be in the past
And we spend it pretending and plyaing it cool
Never knowing what we could have had
- you got me wondering
If I'm good enough, pretty enough, giving enough, special enough..."

Whoa powerful! When I heard it it was like a sledgehammer to the brain. I almost fell out of my chair trying to replay it. And there it is, and here I am, and it doesn't help the pain. And though I didn't write it, SOMEONE did, and that tells me I'm not alone.