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I haven't felt this horrid in a LOOOOONG time. I hate that. I hate admitting that I'm biting it right now. "Days swiftly come and go. I'm dreaming of him. He's seeing other girls. Emotions they stir. The sun is gone. The nights are long. And I am left while the tears fall. Did you think that I would cry. On the phone? Do you know what it feels like. Being alone? I'll find someone new. Swing, swing, swing from the tangles of. My heart is crushed by a former love. Can you help me find a way. To carry on again. Wish cast into the sky. I'm moving on. Sweet beginnings do arise. He knows I was wrong. The notes are old. They bend, they fold. And so do I to a new love. Bury me (You thought your problems were gone). Carry me (Away, away, away...)" What a great song... I never knew it could be physically painful instead of just emotionally. Like an itch you can't find or reach or something. Everytime you think you've found it, it moves to another spot and you're chasing it. Time slows way down for that kind of pain. Its so vivid that it has to be prolonged. Holy Hell, what an irony. When will it finally stop? And why do I feel like I don't have the right? I guess I don't. But I didn't know that until tonight, when I found out the rest. Oh, to have known it before... how would things've been different? I know how, and it would be nice to have another go. There should be an 'undo' button on the toolbar of life. (Hah! There's a bumper sticker!) |